Make the most of the good times
You have to make the most of the good times, when they come. Or do you? I think yes, but there may be consequences.
I had an up and down weekend. Saturday I was not doing well at all. Saturday morning I could not string a sentence together, I had tremors in my leg, numb feet and I was very very dizzy. I struggled form most of the day. However I pushed myself to go and see a couple of friends Saturday early Saturday evening, to just enjoy the sunset, watch movies and read our tarots. It was so hard to do this, but I have been feeling so isolated and alone and I really needed the company and the distraction. It was really nice and I I had the most incredible sleep. I actually haven't slept that well in a very long time.
So when I woke Sunday, I felt pretty good. Minimal symptoms. Low fatigue, no stutter (or barely), no tremors, no head ache and minimal body pains. The only thing I can really say is that I still had brain fog, but it was easy to grab my words so it wasn't frustrating. I did some study, I wrote some of my online course, I enjoyed my day with friends, had lunch out, went for a swim and did what I could manage. It was amazing and I loved every bit of it, while it lasted.
Enter Sunday night. I was back to experiencing body pains, headaches, i had body jerks and I was so exhausted, but I couldn't sleep. It was 4.30am the last I checked the clock and I still had not had one minute of sleep. I crashed, and I crashed hard.
Today I can not speak again, I can't think. I have only been out of bed 2 times. I am in huge amounts of pain, I have general body aches that are quite bad today plus I have piercing pains stabbing my body at different intervals. I have tremors in my right arm and leg and a ringing in my right ear. A lot of my symptoms seem to be on my right side of my body actually. Hmm, I wonder what that is about?
So I here I am, ever so grateful that I got to have a day with minimal discomfort and was able to socialise and feel a little bit more normal than usual. But also questioning if I did too much and I caused this set back by not continuing to rest. I really struggle with all of the isolation and boredom and I guess I am still learning to pace myself. This is something I need to contemplate on and I need to learn little bits at a time.
But if you are anything like me, you never do anything by halves.
I hope you are all having a great day guys and feeling not too bad today.
Its the full moon so there may be some things happening for all of us emotionally. Just take care of yourselves and rest up.
Happy healing and thanks for following.
xoxo